Friday, May 11, 2012

Window of Hope

I am sitting in a train, on the lower side berth, looking out through the window not just right beside me but through the one that lies on my other side. The aisle is bustling with chai-walas, 'coppy'-walas and many more moment-based-defined walas. There is no one sitting next to me. However, next to the window through which I was looking out, had a guy with turban from Goa who kept ogling at me as if I were an alien and a joint-family with five women playing antakshari singing the latest bolly songs and their kids who were jumping like little monkeys exploring the natural wilderness of the Indian trains.

Somehow, getting a glimpse of the world seen through their window through all that commotion was much more stimulating than looking through mine. A funny feeling struck me. Looking outside of the train window suddenly felt as if I were holding a video-cam, with the train driver directing the shoot by navigating through the scenes and fellow travellers were the viewers. The difference is that they were watching the movie along with me, while I was taking the shots. Strange yet colourful thought. I could almost sketch out the reel.

Window is an access to the external, access to a new realm of experience. A world maybe you are unable to step out into but at least view and enjoy. With music blasting in my ears, through the window I start observing the continuous snap-shots of emotionally –rhetorically exciting frames of landscapes changing from green to brown, crowded stations with each person playing his part in this epic movie of either porters scurrying along with the passengers’ suitcases, late-comers chasing the train, kin bidding good-bye, people at transit, beggars counting their pennies and then again the chai-walas, ‘coppy’-walas. I am enjoying the simplicity of the movie where the varying scenes are well knit forming a novel art movie.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

what is this cognitive dissonance????

This was my state of mind a month back. This is how I expressed it.Mind is a mysterious thing. Everything happens undercover. Battles are won and battles are lost. At a stage when you have to make choice between attainable and unattainable, moral and benefit, following and leading; one reaches a state of Cognitive dissonance. You are pulled in all directions by conflicting thoughts. This is when you start discovering yourself. This is when you start developing and exploring - exploration of oneself versus the options that we have.In this process, our mind is searching for some consonance. This is when you start weighing your options versus your desires and reach a decision. For some its time to say, ‘Life is cool’, ‘Take a chill pill’ or ‘take things as they come’. For some this becomes a motivational drive. Motivational drive to reduce the dissonance by either denying the facts/ truth, justifying or blaming.In fact, every minute in our life we are at constant Cognitive dissonance. This is what keeps us moving ahead in life.Keep thinking !

Tuesday, May 17, 2011